Bye Bye Birdie

I haven’t traveled to Azerbaijan for a couple of weeks now, her plains feel barren and in a perpetual state of stale fall. There were no fights or heightened passion, she just kinda passed on during the twilight of… whatever we were. She fells dead to me, not in a “good! I hope you die and go to hell bitch” kinda away, more in an understated sweeping sorrow, void of any and all closure. I thought we were going to make up, after 3 examless days of no contact… it doesn’t seem to be the case. Maybe I could call/txt her… I can’t bring myself to do it. I miss her, it doesn’t feel closed (to me), I think about it some, but I don’t think I will contact her. Maybe lions die like lambs... maybe that’s not a bad thing. I am grieving in a way, and although a weight has been lifted off my chest, I feel east of
A friend and I have starting to hang out a lot. She is starting to really grow on me, I think she feels similar. If she were going to be in the area for the next term it would be a no brianer... but shes moving back home for the summer term... meaning the relationship would be LD at its conception. She has 10 more days here... and with Azeri and i still together we haven't done anything. We are kinda at a stage where we would pull as many all nighters as we could just to see if we could get to know eachother that way. Then she would be gone...Which having an LD relationship wouldn't be horrible... I could work, school and workout all during the week and see her/go to bars on the weekend... I don't know. I am goign to think about it over the weekend and a little bit.. If Azeri doesn't contact me in the slightlest over the next while... I'll know we are over and then maybe i will go for Greek... even that seems off.
After Azeri, if we are over, I am not sure i want to jump into another relationship. Maybe i should just hook up as much as i possible can (with kyle that i extermly easy). The more i get to know greek, however, the less apealing that options seems